I can’t believe it

So I am only a week into my transition to the beautiful woman I believe I am, and while not much can be said in ways of change, something is happening. The hormones and T blockers have already severely thrown off my sleep schedule and while I was warned by a couple that this would happen, I wasn’t expecting it so quickly! I literally can not get more than 2 or 3 hours of sleep at a time. Most days this means that’s how much sleep I get in a night and day, a couple times I’ve been able to nap during the day.

The amazing thing is despite the total lack of sleep, I am not exhausted. I feel great! And I usually don’t usually feel so awake so easily unless I’m having a bi polar mania episode and I can tell you I most definitely am not. Not at all, and my depression is next to none. I am quite productive. I am enjoying work and listening to books. I have even almost doubled the amount of documents I process while at work! I just don’t get it! Could it really be the estrogen and testosterone blockers? Or is it just that I am so excited about what’s happening that it has improved my life in such a short time? I really don’t know but I do know when I usually go with this amount of sleep I am hit by a full force of mental illness and emotional turmoil. So far (fingers crossed) this has not happened, but I have been warned by friends and doctors that I will soon experience a mental and emotional roller coaster so maybe for now I’m just climbing up only to come back down again but I’ll take it. I mean at the very least my annual raise is coming up at work and if I can keep up the work I have been doing, it will be a good one. It is also worth mentioning that my already decreased amount of alcohol intake has dropped next to nothing.

So all around it’s been a good week, and I’m beginning to believe that what my wife says is undoubtedly true. Females are superior. Hahaha we will see if this thought still crosses my mind in the days to come but so far so good. This promises to be quite the journey and it feels so right.

Published by The Lost Girl

Hi, my name is Elsie. My struggles with mental health, sexuality, transitioning, and alcohol are very real. I just wanted to share just in case what I have to say can help someone. Love you all

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