What a ride it has been

So my life has been chaotically happy since I started hormone replacement therapy 6 months ago. Gaining a new wardrobe has been a slow and steady process. Finding my style has been even harder! But so much fun! Affording the hormones and testosterone blockers has been quite another challenge, the my partner and I doContinue reading “What a ride it has been”

A Grateful Yet Sad Reflection Pt 2

So by 14 I was fully struggling with a heroin addiction along with my friends. We spent every moment we could finding ways to get it and school fell to the side. We managed to get good enough grades that at this point made it seem like we were trying. This lasted a lot longerContinue reading “A Grateful Yet Sad Reflection Pt 2”

A stress I’ll never get over

Something happened last night that has had me on a high of stress ever since. Even after it was resolved. My wife calls me at 11pm while I’m at work. She is worried about our daughter who is throwing up and itchy and just not right. My mind instantly spins and I’m absolutely worried. NowContinue reading “A stress I’ll never get over”

A Grateful Yet Sad Reflection Pt 1

So if I haven’t mentioned before, I spent the years between 13 and 20 as a heroin addict. This is about that journey, the friends I have lost, and maybe where I’m at now at the age of 32. We’ll see. I feel the need to mention I have severe PTSD from the events ofContinue reading “A Grateful Yet Sad Reflection Pt 1”

All I can do to feel okay

So in the past few weeks since I started hormone replacement therapy I’ve noticed a few differences, a couple of them brought to my attention by my beautiful wife. A friend of hers asks how she is doing, and, knowing about my transition asks how I am doing. My wife replies with…”she is happier, sheContinue reading “All I can do to feel okay”

A Long Month of Exposure Therapy

So it’s been awhile, now as I sit here at work I look over the past month or so. I have made massive progress both mentally and emotionally, and somewhat physically. I have begun an intensive outpatient program through the OCD and anxiety Treatment Center, to treat anxiety, social anxiety, and PTSD. I have yetContinue reading “A Long Month of Exposure Therapy”

Over the Years

As I approach another year alive, I wonder… I contemplate the last 32 years. While I don’t remember much of early childhood, I remember feeling different, lonely, scared that what I experienced would scare others away. Hearing voices didn’t help, and as soon as I realized the voices weren’t real (I was 6 years old)Continue reading “Over the Years”